Artwork by Francene Hart
After a red-eye flight to Los Angeles from Hawaii Island and then another flight from LA to Seattle in the early AM, the last thing I wanted to think about was four straight hours of teaching at the college.
Who, in their right mind, books a return trip from a far-away place on the same day that they have to go back to work.
When Kalani first asked me to come to the Big Island to be an Artist-in-Residence and to be a teacher for the Hawaii Yoga Festival, I had somehow decided in my head that it was impossible and just about told them "No, I can't do it. I have to teach."
I mentioned the opportunity to my husband and he said, "Why would you miss it? Get a sub for the few days that you'll be gone and go!" It never occurred to me that with the Veteran's Day holiday, I'd only miss two days of class. Not only that, but a good friend and fellow teacher kindly offered to take my classes.
So I went to the Big Island. I met dozens of people, I attended workshops and shared ideas, I taught intuitive writing, I swam in the ocean and climbed up a mountain, I listened to drumming on a cliff with the full moon above me. I was inspired and moved. I felt energized. I felt overwhelming gratitude.
But some tiny part of myself felt guilty for all that I was receiving. Afterall, I was in the middle of a quarter and I have over 50 students to attend to. My rational voice told me it was impossible, but my intuitive voice was screaming for me to get on a plane and just go.
Of course, I listened to my intuition and I don't regret it.
No one should ever feel guilty for blessings offered. If blessings are coming to you, if amazing opportunities are presenting themselves, if someone gives you a gift or you witness magic, accept it fully.
When I got to class this evening, more magic started to unfold. In fact, magic had happened while I was away. Another teacher managed to arrange a Face Time session for my small business class with the makers of Ice Chips. These women had appeared on the TV program Shark Tank and were face-timed in so that my students could ask questions. They had an amazing experience without me being there.
When I got to the classroom this evening, another guest speaker was there to talk to my students about her travel business. I later found out that we graduated from the very same high school and that she was friends with my sister. A student in my class had arranged for her to come do a talk.
And for the finale, the teacher who arranged for the Ice Chips guest speaker to do a Face-Time session, showed up in class with sample boxes of Ice Chips and bracelets for my students.
I just sat there in a chair watching this all unfold. Things did not crumble or fall apart in my absence, they thrived.
When you are open to receiving blessings, magic and even miracles in your life, I truly believe you will have more of them to spread around. Never block all that is coming to you. Receive it with open arms and share all that you are receiving with as many people as possible.
What goes around, truly comes around. Don't be afraid of this. Never feel guilty for it. There's a reason it is coming to you, be open to receive it.
Have you ever felt guilty for all the blessings in your life? Do you feel you deserve to have what you want and be who you want to be?