Saturday, April 5, 2014

Coming Out Of My Shell

Swimming with enormous sea turtles helped me open up again
"At times you have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself."—Alan Alda

Winter was a long, hard haul. I wasn't here at all. I agreed to teach a split schedule at the college where I teach ESL and that just about did me in. The result: I was sick with the flu for an entire month.

I haven't been sick for an entire month since I don't know when.

Obviously I had taken on too much and was out of balance because of this choice I had made.

Never again.

My body and intuition are strong and always give me clues as to what feels right or wrong for me, yet sometimes I choose not to listen to my gut, intuition, hunches, instincts.

Fear is usually what causes me to go against these.

Fear of not enough money. Fear of what others may think. Fear of losing something. Fear, fear, fear...

Fear of death.

I went to Seattle Healing Arts and met a doctor who changed my whole view of things. He told me I needed rest. He said I was under stress.

Me?  Under stress? Someone who practices yoga and meditation? Someone who knows when too much is too much?

But I listened to him. I listened hard.

My digestive track was also out of whack. He prescribed me herbs and a round of antibiotics to get rid of parasites. He gave me a food allergy test and recommended I take a vacation or get a massage.

So that's what I did.

Actually, my husband led a yoga retreat at a private farm in Kula, Maui for 7 days and I was there leading the writing/collaging part of the retreat. We just came back yesterday.

It was so healing for me and those 10 days (7 for a yoga retreat and 3 for our own retreat) changed my life.

I partly went to this retreat to research my next book which I'll tell you more about later, but I mainly went for the healing aspects of being on this island.

I ate fresh veggies and fruit everyday, I did yoga almost every morning, I hiked in a bamboo forest and near waterfalls, I swam in the warm ocean, dug my toes into the sand, felt the sun on my face and the healing hands of my husband on my body (he now does energy healing massages in addition to yoga).

I swam with enormous sea turtles. I felt the power of their beings. These ancient creatures healed me.

After the retreat, we visited a friend in Kula and stayed at her place for two nights. She made the most delicious food straight from her garden: a salad of kale, spinach, arugula, basil, etc. And she made a seafood pasta dish that was so tasty.

I listened to the wind through the sugarcane fields.

I listened to bird calls.

I heard the ocean.

I saw the new moon.

I saw the sunrise from the top of Haleakala.

I listened.

I really listened.

I know what I need to do. It's deep in my soul, but I am not sure why I sometimes work against myself.

A new quarter starts on Monday. I am a bit scared of losing all that I gained while away. I want to keep myself in check and tune in when I have free time. I want to write here on this blog and I am working on a new book.

I'm back. I'm coming out of my shell. It was a long winter, but I'm ready to swim the gentle waters again.

Did you ever do something that went against your instinct or intuition? What was the result? 

8 comments:

  1. I was actually waiting for this post to come in this evening...and you wrote it!
    Going against my intuition always ruins me in the end - saps me of energy and flow. Following my intuition ALWAYS gives me deep peace and energy - but the problem is that sometimes there are major barriers in the way to following intution - I have to trust my intution enough, and know, deeply know, understand that it is what I should do so I have the energy to overcome the obstacles - when I understand, I have all the energy I need to jump over the barrier and follow my intution...the trick is to listen (as you have just written about) Thank-you for reminding me Kathy!

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    1. Yes, listening is key and finding space to listen...that's the extra challenge. Carving out space to "just be" was something I missed. The empty space provides the key to your intuition. Thanks for writing and stopping by here Marcella!

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  2. So sorry to hear you've been unwell. Glad to hear you've seen a doctor and are following the advice you received.

    I'm trying to trust my intuition more, these days. It's vital!

    Blessings and Bear hugs!

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    1. Yes, listening to intuition is so vital, yet I sometimes forget this when I get busy and caught up with life. I am going to try and keep myself in check this time. It's vital ^_^!

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  3. So sorry to hear you have had such a hard winter. Glad you are feeling much better now. Your retreat sounded amazing. Yes, I think all of us need to listen more, instead of run, run, run. Our bodies definitely know what we need. Big Hugs your way.

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    1. Thanks for your comment Karen! So happy to hear from you. I plan to write here once a week at least and no more running around...I need lots of down time :)! Hope you are getting that too.

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  4. Oh yes Katherine - I know what you mean - I am currently tuning in - listening - asking the Universe - taking notice - and when my gut does not feel right I STOP if at all possible and take notice of my intuition - thanks for the post - have a lovely week ahead. Cheers, Wendy

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    1. I'm so glad you are doing this too Wendy! Enjoy your week too!

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