|Swimming with enormous sea turtles helped me open up again|
Winter was a long, hard haul. I wasn't here at all. I agreed to teach a split schedule at the college where I teach ESL and that just about did me in. The result: I was sick with the flu for an entire month.
I haven't been sick for an entire month since I don't know when.
Obviously I had taken on too much and was out of balance because of this choice I had made.
My body and intuition are strong and always give me clues as to what feels right or wrong for me, yet sometimes I choose not to listen to my gut, intuition, hunches, instincts.
Fear is usually what causes me to go against these.
Fear of not enough money. Fear of what others may think. Fear of losing something. Fear, fear, fear...
Fear of death.
I went to Seattle Healing Arts and met a doctor who changed my whole view of things. He told me I needed rest. He said I was under stress.
Me? Under stress? Someone who practices yoga and meditation? Someone who knows when too much is too much?
But I listened to him. I listened hard.
My digestive track was also out of whack. He prescribed me herbs and a round of antibiotics to get rid of parasites. He gave me a food allergy test and recommended I take a vacation or get a massage.
So that's what I did.
Actually, my husband led a yoga retreat at a private farm in Kula, Maui for 7 days and I was there leading the writing/collaging part of the retreat. We just came back yesterday.
It was so healing for me and those 10 days (7 for a yoga retreat and 3 for our own retreat) changed my life.
I partly went to this retreat to research my next book which I'll tell you more about later, but I mainly went for the healing aspects of being on this island.
I ate fresh veggies and fruit everyday, I did yoga almost every morning, I hiked in a bamboo forest and near waterfalls, I swam in the warm ocean, dug my toes into the sand, felt the sun on my face and the healing hands of my husband on my body (he now does energy healing massages in addition to yoga).
I swam with enormous sea turtles. I felt the power of their beings. These ancient creatures healed me.
After the retreat, we visited a friend in Kula and stayed at her place for two nights. She made the most delicious food straight from her garden: a salad of kale, spinach, arugula, basil, etc. And she made a seafood pasta dish that was so tasty.
I listened to the wind through the sugarcane fields.
I listened to bird calls.
I heard the ocean.
I saw the new moon.
I saw the sunrise from the top of Haleakala.
I really listened.
I know what I need to do. It's deep in my soul, but I am not sure why I sometimes work against myself.
A new quarter starts on Monday. I am a bit scared of losing all that I gained while away. I want to keep myself in check and tune in when I have free time. I want to write here on this blog and I am working on a new book.
I'm back. I'm coming out of my shell. It was a long winter, but I'm ready to swim the gentle waters again.
Did you ever do something that went against your instinct or intuition? What was the result?